Posted on 23/05/2004
SaiRam once again from Bangalore.
Reached Brindavan at 7:30AM and
relieved that Swamy hasn't arrived yet for darshan. SR Hall is full
and the annexe as well. Since I started late, I couldn't go into the Hall.
Just happy to be here, as I assume a seat in one of the last few
rows of the annexe, that is as far as you can sit here! I take a seat and
people continue to come and we pack ourselves more and more here. A few
islands are there, where there is nobody sitting since a pillar
blocks the view of the stage from here. Clock keeps ticking and we
continue to wait, all the while thinking about Swamy.
"Sathyam, Shivam, Sundaram........", the old hindi number instrumental
announces the arrival of the "Truth, Goodness, Beauty" that our Swamy is.
Omkar and now Ganesh vandana starts, lead by lady devotees. Today being
Sunday, it is the turn of the Brindavan bhajan group and they sing through
the day. Swamy arrives by now on stage. The escorts assume their seats on
the floor on either side of Swamy. They are all attention and attend to
the slightest movement of Bhagawan. Guru vandana starts, also by a lady
devotee. Now the turn of gents for the third bhajan. Swamy sits keeping
time to the bhajans and occassionally wiping with the left hand.
Right hand rests on the thigh and the hand taps keeping time. I struggle
hard to zoom in on Swamy. I try to focus. This is a good exercise. Since
focussing is a difficult thing, it doesn't allow mind to do anything
else. So this helps. Occassionally Swamy lifts HIS left hand with
palm facing up, seems to lift our souls! We sing loudly and clap. Happy to
be here, certainly. I think, next time I have Swamy's darshan from a
distance of 10 metres or so, I will consider it to be great darshan. That
is the effect which this great distance will bring. Hope Swamy's hand is
alright soon and HE comes down to be amidst us soon again. Bhajans
continue.... Swamy listening to each bhajan. Now they sing 'Jai Hari
bol jai Sitaram........' and Swamy signals to start back. Soon HE is on
HIS way back. Bhajans continue, albeit without the microphone. We all
stand up in the rear to catch a glimpse as Swamy passes by the Trayee
gate. We do and sit down to recollect, meditate, contemplate and
assimilate the energy that our Lord gave us just now. Bhajans must
be going on in the front. It is Swamy's grace to be here in Brindavan. HE
draws us here and lets us bask in this love.
Thank you Swamy. And till HE gives
me another chance,
Jai Sai Ram.
At HIS Lotus Feet
Posted on 22/05/2004
A loving SaiRam to all of you.
was weekend again and time to go to Brindavan and catch a glimpse of our
Lord. HE too said Yes and we reached Brindavan by about 7:30AM. SR Hall
was full and we could just walk through and sit anywhere in the annexe
now. Still people were coming in and even though it is well known
that Swamy doesn't come for rounds these days, we still have large number
of devotees thronging to catch a glimpse of the Lord from however far. I
find a place and take seat and reflect, it is of course Swamy's love that
brings us here. HE has moulded our minds so that we can focus now on
the positive. Thousands sit here together and yet each one is turned
inward, to whatever extent, the journey has started. We have embarked upon
the quest of our life. We derive happiness simply by being there. All
this is the consequence of HIS love and HIS power. Didn't HE say, "Love is
my greatest miracle".
The thought train goes on collecting compartments and the music plays. All
eyes at the Trayee gate to take a first glimpse of the Lord. It is 7:55AM.
Omkar, followed by Ganesh vandana. Bhagawan comes onto the stage
accompanied by Raj Kumar Jain, Dr. Padmanabhan and Sanjay Mahalingam. A
tumbler of water is placed to the left of Bhagawan. Swamy keeps time
to the songs with HIS left hand. Even HIS right hand seems a lot better
now as HE moves that as well. Sitting at a very great distance, I am
trying to focus on the Lotus Feet. All I can see is that there is a
built-in foot rest on the mobile sofa. And I can see HIS dhothi as
well. I try hard to concentrate. I don't want to feel anything but Swamy.
It is as if nothing and no one else is in between. Suddenly a pigeon flies
and flies like an aircraft keeping its wings stiff while sailing on
inertia. Ah, they say pigeons reside where there is peace. That is proved
here. Whole lot of devotees sing whole heartedly and loudly. Bhajans are
short and sweet. Swamy must have sat for about 10 bhajans and then
signalled for aarati. Soon aarati was given and Swamy went back to Trayee
through the stage. Aarati completed and we pray for world peace, 'lokah
samastAh sukHino bHvantu', yet to see Swamy passing through the Trayee
gate. Probably HE is talking to somebody there. Soon HE passes by. One
more glance at HIM and I sit quietly reliving those sweet moments when HE
is physically with us. I pray for HIM to grant the next darshan
quickly and come back home.
For the people interested in Veda chanting: You must have come across the
book Veda pushpanjali. Some parts of this book have been rendered by
the students and are available as an audio cd in the stores. The rendering
is soul lifting and you'll certainly benefit from it.
Till HE grants me next darshan,
Jai Sai Ram.